delusional until it becomes real

all my life, i’ve been getting stared down upon by little peasants

like a sociopath, i smile back and refuse to show off emotions. in the end, I know i’ll be the one on top

a humble nature in me tells me not to, to keep a balance

fuck balance

i used to collect looks mfs give me, and upload it into an archive to analyse later

& somewhere along the way I stopped despising it. don’t get me wrong, I hate humanity more than anyone else you met. but now, I understand the deeper meaning behind it

it is not doubt

self defence is a better fitting description

cuz if the life i preach is possible... then what does that make the last few years of their life?

honestly, nobody survives that question

specially not a sane human

so,

they look at you with envy, and a awkward smirk behind a mask

you’re still crazy in their eyes

but whatever makes them have a good night sleep...

...fine, i’ll be crazy then. idc

to me,

delusion is simply faith that hasn’t clocked in yet

think about what you’re actually asking a man to do

believe in something that does not exist yet

no results to be shown

no one clapping

strictly speaking, just a guy who insists on living in a different dimension only he can see... for months, maybe even years

while everyone around him gangs up on him, telling to quit

that’s not a mindset

it is closer to religion

staying in the mix so long, with fire burning deep inside, to still stay hungry for it?

it comes to the delusional. always has

every founder you admire looked crazy at some point. talking to himself about conquering empires while eating rice and beans

writing perfectly optimised marketing ads to zero followers

training to be ready for war

i’d spent long hours analysing guys who made it out with aspirin & caffeine by my side, to understand why going insane gets you success

what i realised is

even mfs who are at the top now, never had it easy

yeah, now they’re drowning in $$$... but at the time?

even their mothers was having doubts

nobody warns you that the phase of being doubted is necessary. there is just no way around it. the deep worry of the people who love you the most is a side quest to see if you’re built for this

after years of arguing with my mother and girlfriend, losing pretty much all of my homies, i believe i paid the price

there is no shame in this

i’d talk about this type of obsession with myself, in the mirror... and hear my own voice replying

the refusal to quit and ability to bounce back is what kept me going

at some point, I had almost quit, but we’re still in the game baby

i don’t fully understand why i didn’t

i’d love to live a life with no worry, quietly reply to emails & make enough money to survive

but the more i think about it...

the more i understand i am not built for that life

sort of stubbornness that lives below thought that knows deep down i am supposed to live a high life

i felt the life i was destined to be living, tapping at the glass...

when i decided to open it...

everything changed

literally everything

so, my point is...

the world doesn’t reward realistic guys

it employs them

only crazy enough will survive this game

i’d rather die the right way, than live it the wrong way

i’d rather burn years on something that sounds too fanatical/delusional to some

than keep myself inferior to live a life i never wanted

look around you...

everything you see...

was once one human’s inner dream that they refused to wake up from

reflect on this

and refuse to wake up from that dream

that’s the whole game

everything always comes back to this...

hold the picture longer than reasonable

reality catches up eventually

it always catches up to crazy minded

stay schizo.

g2Ø.

and by the way…

the hardest part of this life is holding the picture alone

trust me

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love,g2Ø